Anyone ever just want to up and move somewhere and not tell anyone? Yeah, I’m at that point in my life.
My life has been full of drama for the last like 5 years straight. The kind of drama that seems to just follow you because there’s no way to just fully avoid it.
People keep trying to talk to me about MY business when the LAST thing I want to do is talk about it. It’s really hard to mentally deal with something when everyone won’t leave you alone about it.
I feel like the only one I can really trust 100% is my damn self. It’s such an isolating feeling when everyone you know has done something to hurt you or betray you in some way. I literally feel like I have no one to fully lean on.
One thing I know I got out of all the bullshit I’ve been through though is that fact that I’m more intune with my gut instincts and if I’ve learned anything after all I’ve been through, it would be to ALWAYS trust your gut. For a long time (longer than I’d like to admit), I ignored my instincts because I wanted to see the good in people… Sometimes there’s just more deceit in a human being than there is good and it took me so long to realize that.
I’m just overwhelmed with life and the drama that’s attached to mine, that I just want to up and move without telling anyone. I just need a break. My mind needs a break from the excessive thoughts that it creates due to the anxiety that was caused by what people did to me. I need to get a grip on my life again without people questioning me or pushing their way into my life.
This past month has been hard for me. My mind goes a million miles an hour and in all different directions. One minute I feel happy with my life and the ones in it and the next minute, I feel like I can’t trust anyone.
I just want to be able to do shit by myself without being questioned or without me worrying about how someone else feels about it or if I’m hurting someone else’s feelings.
I just need a break. Anyone have a cabin in the middle of no where that me and my daughter can escape to for a few years? Lol